In All my Imperfections, Here I Am

In All my Imperfections, Here I Am

Sunday, April 7, 2013

We...

We are easily subjected to our own chains that bind us with temptation, depression, indifference...they withhold us from idealizing anything remotely promising to present us with a better future, and a dimmed past. We oftentimes overwhelm ourselves with the pressures of everyday life. We tend to speak with a optimistic voice, but the terrified voice that screams inside scatters any form of confidence we've held to promote our optimism. Where can we regain that confidence we once knew? What makes us so scared to step outside the little box that we've convinced ourselves protects us and shelters our innermost thoughts? What induces our inner demons to surface our pool of darkness? Will we be forever succumbed to our tantrum of lies and denial?
There's THE answer, and then there's a safe answer. We tend to go with safe.
Safe...definition? "Protected from or not exposed to danger or risk; not likely to be harmed or lost." 
Danger would be stepping out of our little box. The risk would be dodging bullets. Bullets that consider our ego the bulls-eye. Not likely to be harmed mentally, or lost conscientiously.
Safe.

THE answer is more complicated. Considering we are human beings, and the steps we take tend to be misguided, the footsteps we leave have flaws, but they are nonetheless imprinted into the dust beneath our feet. They are there for when we've come to the dead end, we turn around, and face them, gaze upon the flaws, and from there, a decision to either retrace that step, or imprint a new one beside it. Retracing meaning, you faced that flaw, and decided to overcome it, buried it with a new story. Imprinting a new one is accepting the flaw for what it is, standing beside it, and moving on, ready to make more mistakes.
Either decision is chosen with caution. Either decision will lead you somewhere else, of uncertainty where it may lead, you have chosen to step outside that little box. You have chosen to be the own leader of where your paths will go. You have chosen.
Why I may say that the answer is more complicated, well, confiscating all that we are, when our human nature is to let go and let everything else control us, is a huge step. By huge, meaning our comfort will be shaken, our ego will be shot at, and confidence will contain gaps, where confusion, and uncertainty fill those empty spaces. You will never know how the ending goes, because we are walking in pure darkness. Accepting that fact that we may fail, and then moving on with our head held high, just might be the best way to defeat some of your innermost worries. We all fail, we all fall, but with failure came that POSSIBILITY to succeed. With possibility is plenty of opportunities to try again and succeed the second, third, or maybe even fourth time around. It's within our desire and determination that makes the ending what we want it to be.

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